Can’t Control My Feelings
At this point my feelings are a little out of control and I don’t know what to do with it. I can’t control my feelings and it’s hurting my daily life.
A couple of weeks ago I had the best weekend ever. Not to go into too many details but it was just everything I wanted out of a weekend, it was lovely, and relaxing, and happy, and comforting. I felt safe. But the moment the weekend was over I felt lost – why was it such a fleeting feeling and would I get it again or is it lost forever?
I’ve been sad since and I don’t know how to get back to feeling happy again. I’m trying but I just feel lost and like I can’t think straight. I feel alone and I can’t feel happy, even for a minute. Not at work, not with my friends, not at any point in time really.
I’m been anxious my whole life and I’ve felt depression (seasonal) before, but I don’t think I’ve ever been this depressed before and it’s a horrible feeling that I feel like I can’t control. What was the trigger? What made me so sad? I think I know the answer but it feels like such a dumb answer that I don’t dare try to explain it to anyone around me.
Oh well, on we go with life.
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Your reasoning Is never dumb. Anything you feel is valid. I’ll listen with no judgement. You’re going through so much.You don’t have to do this alone.
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That’s so kind of you 🥺🥺
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I’m trying to encourage you to talk to somebody. What you’re feeling is deep and it’s too much to handle by yourself. It doesn’t even sound like you’re handling it well by yourself. This is a time when I can’t just forget it and say hope he’s alright.
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Not exactly sure how to reach out to anyone though, I wanna get a therapist but I won’t be around to do that until September so idk
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What country are you in? There has to be hotlines or emergency numbers where you are. “Reaching Out” isn’t strictly to people with a PHD in psychology. Places, such as here, introduce you to tons of people… and sure you don’t know any of us personally but that doesn’t mean friendship can’t develop. It doesn’t mean kindness won’t be extended if you need someone to listen to you. Social media has become a life saver since the pandemic started.
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I’m in the UK, but not exactly sure how to do that to be honest, I think it’d just make me more uncomfortable.
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I get that. Change is always uncomfortable. You CAN do it though. Again, you don’t have to reach out to a therapist. Do you practice a particular religion or faith?
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