At this point my feelings are a little out of control and I don’t know what to do with it. I can’t control my feelings and it’s hurting my daily life.
A couple of weeks ago I had the best weekend ever. Not to go into too many details but it was just everything I wanted out of a weekend, it was lovely, and relaxing, and happy, and comforting. I felt safe. But the moment the weekend was over I felt lost – why was it such a fleeting feeling and would I get it again or is it lost forever?
I’ve been sad since and I don’t know how to get back to feeling happy again. I’m trying but I just feel lost and like I can’t think straight. I feel alone and I can’t feel happy, even for a minute. Not at work, not with my friends, not at any point in time really.
I’m been anxious my whole life and I’ve felt depression (seasonal) before, but I don’t think I’ve ever been this depressed before and it’s a horrible feeling that I feel like I can’t control. What was the trigger? What made me so sad? I think I know the answer but it feels like such a dumb answer that I don’t dare try to explain it to anyone around me.
Oh well, on we go with life.