The world is always testing me, making sure I grow. Just as I start getting comfortable, advancing through life with little hiccups and fully enjoying what I’m doing, life does a total 180 and here I am, back in unknown, uncomfortable territory again.
It’s not that I don’t like change, I actually love not getting bored, trying new things all the time. But I like to be in control of those new things happening. It’s when I completely lose control (yes, I know we don’t actually have control of much, but sometimes it feels like it) over what’s happening and don’t have a say in my future that anxiety sparks up again.
I’m fully aware this is not a bad thing per se. I should get used to thinking on my feet, not getting affected by things out of my control and rolling with the punches, but sometimes I just wish things were simple for a little while longer. Let me live my comfortable life without those annoying hiccups once in a while.