I’m Afraid

I feel like for the past few weeks I feel a little more afraid of everything. My mind keeps over-analysing everything and I can’t get away from my own thoughts. One thing that’s helped me a lot is to take a few days fully to myself, where I’ve either played games, wrote, studied or watched TV Shows – that did help.

However, I don’t know why I can’t get back to my (mostly) confident self that I used to be, wanting to go out at all times and not really caring about what other people thought. My self that used to meet up with friends constantly and not worry about even getting out of the house.

I will say that one of the things that brought this fear along was the novel Coronavirus. I’m not usually affected by these things, but for some reason this new virus has gotten me overthinking every step, every interaction, and made me afraid of everything. I’m fully aware that most of it is irrational (some of it is just common sense), but I’ve never really felt affected by other viruses going around before – so why this one?

While I’ve always been a little hypersensitive and paying attention to all my surroundings in public, lately it’s gotten so much worse that I’m barely paying attention to what I’m doing. Why is that?

Anyway, just needed to vent and let these feelings out “on paper” in the hopes that it motivates me to get out there more and be fearless.