I’ve been in the UK for almost 8 years, but am not British and don’t consider myself to be British. Nevertheless, I love this country and everything it has to offer. I love that people are so open-minded in London, I love that it is so culturally diverse and I love all the opportunities.
When the vote for Brexit happened, it was a shock. I saw people crying in the tube, I saw people feeling like they lost a home. I felt a little bit of that myself, but in my head it never really felt like it was actually going to happen – it’s as if it was all a weirdly bad dream.
Over the last few years I didn’t give it as much attention as I couldn’t do much about it – I’m not allowed to vote on these National elections/votes and I still don’t feel like it’s my place when the decision is completely out of my hands.
When Brexit finally happened on Friday, even though it has technically changed very little for me personally, one thing has definitely changed: my view of this country.
This country that I thought was so inclusive no longer feels like a home. This country that I’ve been so proud to be in for the last 8 years no longer feels no longer brings me much pride at all. By going through with Brexit, by the decision voters made in the last election, and by the way the country is treating others, it sends a very clear message to everyone – you don’t belong here, we don’t want you here.
While I know that’s not the case for a lot of people, it clearly is for the majority, and that breaks my heart. I, once again, am left with the feeling that I don’t have a home. After living in a country for so long, paying taxes all along, being the best citizen I could be to rightfully represent my own country.
I’m still grateful for the opportunities, but it now feels like a broken, unstable home and I don’t know if this country offers much future at all anymore.